Loved by You

Loved by You

Every time is like the first time tenderly Loving you is like breathing spring Seasons change but your heart beats constantly Count my blessing every day as you love me As the sunset disappears across the northern sky You look for forever in my eyes All I can say, long as I have a voice I’ll thank God above that I was your first choice

Chorus:

If I should die before I wake I’ll go into the night whispering your name If lying in your arms is the last thing that I do At least I know that I’ll be loved by you

In about a hundred years from now When all of my love letters are found And someone reads these words I’ve written only meant for you They’ll know how forever came true…

Repeat chorus

Let the years roll on by These are the best times of my life I’ll just smile when my days are through Knowing that I’ve been loved by you At least I know that I’ve been loved by you

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Nothing else in life means anything, other than family and friends.  I am working towards the more truer me, and along this journey, I am having visions of my former self: angry, frustrated, snapping at my husband, my kids….and thinking how awful I was.  I know that when I was in that moment I was blaming them, or my work, or the situation, or whatever.  The reality is that it was me, and how I was dealing with the situation.  I know, we all know, that we are in charge of our own self.  However, in the moment of “losing it” we are not able to see it.  Only when we reflect, if we are able ever to, can we see it.  I am seeing it right now with much clarity.

The other day, I started a donation to a charity on a monthly basis of $25.  I told my husband how happy I was to do that, and his comment was “well $25 more in our retirement fund would be nice…”  I was stunned!  I didn’t even respond.  I was quiet and tried to breath and not attack him for being so awful.  This morning he apologized, and told me why he said it, and that he was stressed about work, etc. and that he knows he should have not said it.  This reminds me again that we are all doing the best we can, but have moments of falling off that track, and being awful.  But if we love each other, have patience and do our best to practice kindness, we can be OK.  The world can be awful or it can be beautiful, its really up to us.  And even though we know its up to us, we need to give ourselves a break when we fall of the track, and work to get back up and be better!